“Dear friend now in the dusty clockless hours of the town when
the streets lie black and steaming in the wake of the water trucks
and now when the drunk and the homeless have washed up in the
lee of walls in alleys or abandoned lots and cats go forth highshouldered
and lean in the grim perimeters about, now in these soot-blacked
brick or cobbled corridors where lightwire shadows make a
gothic harp of cellar doors no soul shall walk save you”
Suttree, Cormac McCarthyImage

The Whole Quitting Smoking Thingy!


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As I struggle through my smoking cessation plan I am constantly relearning the basic fact that it is really hard to stop this filthy habit.

Early on in my career as a social worker I did a lot of work with alcoholics. Alcoholism rivals cigarette smoking in terms of its being a societal problem, perhaps even eclipses smoking (if that is possible) as an addiction.

Every family knows both of these addictions well I am sure – we all have friends who drink too much and we all have friends who smoke.  Both of these addictions reduce quality of life, destroy relationships, and shorten lifespan.

I believe they both work in somewhat the same way in that they are both constantly nagging away at your psyche every second of the day.  Both of these addictions haunt your every waking moment and can appear to eclipse other facets of your life – like love, friendships, trust and simpe good sense.

Most importantly, both are “legal”.  I don’t need a Harvard dissertation to assign these two addictions as being the two most harmful addictions in our society today and yet they are both legal.

And when you realize that the two main beneficiaries of these addictions are the businesses who sell them and the governments who tax them I think you get a sense of the psychopathology of both these players.  The last thing the government would like to see is a ban on either one of these products – due to concerns about revenue loss.

I believe the government capitulates to the business community because they work for the business community, as the bank bailouts have displayed over the least few years.  Bankster terrorism is now a prevalent reality of our daily lives and many would argue that the banks already run our lives as a defacto one world government already.

Drugs and wars are really the two biggest money making enterprises of the business community and have always been.  And as historians have pointed out – usually both sides of any given war are funded by the same bankster terrorists who make money financing the destruction of entire countries and then make money rebuilding these same devastated countries, often taking over control of them with debt during the process.

Such is the world we live in.

Quick example: Max Warburg sat on the board of IG Farben until 1938 – IG Farben was the weapons maker for the Nazis.

His brother Paul Warburg was a wall street banker who was one of the prime players in the establishment of the Federal Reserve Bank – a bank which is neither federal nor has any reserves.

Both brothers were involved in the funding of both sides of World War 1 and World War 2.

So, they fund wars and they use their powers to control society in order to make more money.

Making profits from vice is one of their core businesses, always has been.

Alcohol, drugs, tobacco etc all just profit mechanisms, nothing more.

Now to get back to tobacco – not only is it one of the most dangerous products in use today it is protected by both the businesses and governments who make money from them.

The only real revenge one can have in the face of theses avaricious demons is to refuse to play.  No one forces anyone to buy cigarettes or alcohol, you have to do it willingly which is the most insidious twist in this whole macabre situation.

So stopping smoking not only leads to better health and longer life but it also somewhat diminishes the control the psychopathic bankers have over your money.

A few years ago when the heads of the American tobacco companies were compelled to testify before congress they compared the addiction to smoking to the urge to eat jellybeans or ju jubes.

But when asked they all confessed to the same thing – not one of them smoked.

The Waxman hearings

read more here

History of Smoking


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Tobacco has been around for 9000 years.  It was a medicinal product used by the Mayans who took it with them as they populated South America, dispersing it far and wide.  It wasn’t until 1000 years ago that they began to chew and smoke the leaves while they also used them along with plants and herbs as medicine.

Columbus was probably the first European to see tobacco leaves although he did not smoke them himself.

A fellow explorer, Rodrigo de Jerez, shortly after, landed in Cuba and observed some of the inhabitants smoking the tobacco leaves. He then proceeded to partake in the smoking act himself.

On his return to Spain, laden with heaps of tobacco, Jerez startled his fellow countrymen by smoking in front of them. Never in their lives had they seen a man with smoke coming out of his mouth and nose. People thought that he was possessed by the devil and members of the Spanish Inquisition imprisoned him for several years. During his imprisonment, smoking actually became quite popular in Spain. ”

read more here.

and here

Initially tobacco imported from the new world into Europe was used in pipe smoking and in snuff.

Cigarettes as we know them today emerged in the mid 1800’s.  In London pipe smoking and snuff had become quite popular but with the advent of a cigarette machine (and thus mass production) the cigarette grew immensely in mass consumption.

A cigarette from the French for “small cigar”. Cigar comes, through the Spanish and Portuguese cigarro, from the Mayan siyar; “to smoke rolled tobacco leaves”

But it was the military, both British and American, that popularized smoking as they issued cigarettes with basic rations.  Having become addicted to tobacco, these soldiers then went home and introduced smoking to the wider culture, starting with their friends and families.

Popular myth says that the dangers of smoking were first understood in the 50’s but that is not so.  The Nazis began and anti-tobacco program in the 30’s which included advertising bans, public campaigns against smoking and many other programs in use today.  Smoking was restricted in public and a cigarette tax was introduced.  Hitler himself was against the use of tobacco.  He didn’t smoke, he didn’t drink and he was a vegetarian.

The anti-smoking backlash was under way as early as 1904 in Germany and other countries.

“The first such German language journal was Der Tabakgegner (The Tobacco Opponent), published by the Bohemian organization between 1912 and 1932. Deutscher Tabakgegner (German Tobacco Opponent) was published in Dresden from 1919 to 1935, and was the second journal on this subject”

Various additives are combined into the shredded tobacco product mixtures, with humectants such as propylene glycol or glycerol, as well as flavouring products and enhancers such as cocoa solids, licorice, tobacco extracts, and various sugars, which are known collectively as “casings”. The leaf tobacco will then be shredded, along with a specified amount of small laminate, expanded tobacco, BL, RL, ES and IS. A perfume-like flavour/fragrance, called the “topping” or “toppings”, which is most often formulated by flavor companies, will then be blended into the tobacco mixture to improve the consistency in flavour and taste of the cigarettes associated with a certain brand name. Additionally, they replace lost flavours due to the repeated wetting and drying used in processing the tobacco. Finally the tobacco mixture will be filled into cigarettes tubes and packaged.

A list of 599 cigarette additives, created by five major American cigarette companies, were approved by the Department of Health and Human Services in April 1994. None of these additives are listed as ingredients on the cigarette pack(s). Chemicals are added for organoleptic purposes and many boost the addictive properties of cigarettes, especially when burned.

One of the chemicals on the list, ammonia, helps convert bound nicotine molecules in tobacco smoke into free nicotine molecules. This process is known as freebasing which enhances the effect of the nicotine on the smoker.

Here is a list of additives in tobacco. Hint – there’s a whole heck of a lot of them.

So, the tobacco companies knew they had a lethal and toxic product from 1904 onward and despite that knowledge they mass marketed it nonetheless.  In fact, they used the american government via the military to expand their sales beginning with the soldiers and then later their friends and families.

Today over 1 billion people smoke on the planet.  In the developing world smoking is rampant and largely unregulated.  As sales of tobacco have declined in the developed world the tobacco companies have simply moved overseas to the less enlightened developing countries.  With the full knowledge that they will kill millions more people in doing so.

“U.S. tobacco companies have a long history of deceit, deception and duplicity in their relentless pursuit of profit. These companies have hooked generations of American smokers using the tools of manipulative advertising, disinformation campaigns refuting the health consequences of smoking, and political lobbying. In the process, they have grown into enormous multinational conglomerates. In recent years, as smoking has declined in the United States, they have begun to look elsewhere for growth.”

read more here

Cardiovascular disease is the leading cause of death in the world and one of it’s biggest causes is smoking.

John Taylor Gatto’s New Film


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Mr Gatto is requesting donations be made through his website for his new film called

The Fourth Purpose

Part I – What’s Wrong with our schools?

Part II – How did it get that way?

Part III – What can we do?parents and teachers.

Mr Gatto is featured in a 5 hour discussion on youtube noted below on this page and I highly recommend the series of 5 – 1 hours talks.  Mr Gatto is brilliant and he understands history and education on a sublime level.  He is a world renown lecturer who is witty, scholastic, and he is very kind and understanding.
Spend some time with him as he talks to Richard Grove from Tragedy and Hope, another web site you should be thinking about making community with.
Back to the film, donations of any size are appreciated and if you do donate you can be sure that you are funding some great information (badly needed) from one the truly “good guys” in this world.

More On Quitting Smoking


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Quitting smoking is undoubtedly one of the hardest things to do, especially after you have been at it for some years.  Smoking becomes ingrained into every aspect of your life from dawn to dusk and it seems to permeate every cell.

Why do people smoke?

How can you stop smoking?

Quitting cold turkey!

If and when you decide to quit don’t be disappointed by relapses.  You have done well to start quitting and you just need to stick to it – don’t beat yourself up, the cigarettes are doing that quite enough.

Celebrate your victories – even 1 non-smoked cigarette is a victory.

There is an old joke that goes: quitting smoking is easy – I do it all the time.  Let me just encourage you to continue to quit – no matter how long it takes or how many relapses you have to go through – each time is a victory.

Imagine yourself in the future not smoking – what would life be like, how would you feel, what would you be doing?

Keep the faith – human beings have endured through the worst of times and everyone can endure quitting smoking – your big pay off is one day you will be able to utter the wonderful line:

No thanks, I don’t smoke.

God bless all the smokers and especially those who are quitting – no matter what you have to go through to quit it is worth it.  Just keep at it!

Onwards With the Medical Process


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Today, June 21, I went on to the next step of my medical process which was to go to St Michael’s Hospital here in Toronto.  The Dr inserted a tube in my urethra and had a look into my bladder and what was very odd is that I could see the video screen and he walked me through the process of checking out my bladder, with video.  There it was – my cancer.  The Dr said something to the effect of “see that thing that looks like a sea anemone“.

Bladder cancer – the 4rth most common cancer among men – number 1 cause – smoking.  I am in the process of quitting – I am down from 25/day to 4/day – and I find it amazing how irritating quitting smoking can be.  I decided to cut down gradually over time as a technique because I think the only way to quit smoking is to decide you have to/are going to do it and without playing any games.  After all these years of smoking a gradual decrease is the best way I have decided to pursue instead of using the patch or, even worse, the beta blockers – that is just obfuscating.

The beta blockers come with a warning that cautions against suicide, permanent psychological damage persisting even after stopping the medication, aggression and extreme dreams to begin with.

I have decided that, at some point, you have to look within yourself and find the strength to get things done.  There is no place to run.  If you can’t quit smoking even when you have smoking related cancer then you may as well keep smoking until you do feel you can – so long as you fully register what it is you may lose – your life and everything in it.

If you feel that continuing to smoke is worth more to you than your life then continue to smoke.  I hope and pray that very few people feel that way, but I accept that some might.

Whichever way you decide to quit I wish you well and advise you to talk to your friends and loved ones, include them in your process and look them in the eye when and if you decide that smoking is more important than being with them.  I truly hope that few people take this option, but it is an option.

Right now, as i go snaky from time to time dealing with the withdrawal, I remind myself that there comes a better day when the addiction is less and less and in the end you can say – no thanks I don’t smoke.

“To all the lonely sailors who have trouble beeing seen
To all of you with heartache that remains
Maybe sometime later you might swim back into shore
If someone could relieve you of your chains ”

“All the Lovely Ladies”  Gordon Lightfoot


John Taylor Gatto – American Scholar and Educator


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The Ultimate History lesson – a 5 hour interview that is impeccable, brought to you by Richard Grove and the good folks at Tragedy and Hope

Mr Gatto’s website

Medical update – why you should quit smoking, really!


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OK – to follow up on my earlier post about not waiting to follow up on medical issues when they arise, I went to do an ultrasound at a place called

Edward Street X-Ray and Ultrasound

this clinic is a great facility, very professional and human at the same time – they found a lesion on my bladder – which accounts for my health issues as of late

The clinic then forwarded my info to my Dr who I saw the next day and I got scheduled for a visit with a cancer Dr where I got a date for a biopsy on this lesion to determine or confirm the presence of cancer.  It is a cliche but there is nothing like sitting in a room with your Dr (and mine is a great Dr) and listening to him tell you that, most likely you have cancer.

I have been doing some research on cancer and I have discovered the bleak reality facing people who are afflicted with this disease.  The general overview seems to be that the cancer industry has been providing a treatment protocol; based on surgery and and chemo therapy/radiation which has been as harmful to patients – if not more so – than the disease itself.

Unfortunately, this industry has not been able to make any significant gains in dealing with the disease over the last 50 or 60 years and, worse, the general feeling in the alternative medical protocols space is that the current mainstream medical model neither understands the disease nor treats it very well.

It has become crucial for any cancer patient to get into some deep research when deciding what path they are going to take.

Gerson Institute

the major cause of bladder cancer is smoking and I have smoked for 40 years – I am so addicted that even now I am finding it really hard to quit.  I have been able to cut down about 80% but that is not enough.  i am going to start the beta blockers therapy today – a 12 week program – because quitting smoking is crucial for everyone who has cancer (no kidding) but it should be the number one priority of everyone who smokes.

I also went for a colonoscopy at this place:  Kensington Health Screening 

which is a great place – again very professional and very caring, and I got a clean bill of health for that which was a great relief.

Now I would also like to say a word about health care in Canada as opposed to healthcare in the United States.  In Canada healthcare in mostly free.  In the United States it is a privatized, for profit system which is driven by money.

for someone like myself who went from feeling bad to getting a diagnosis in a short period of time, i have had to pay 50 dollars to the ultrasound clinic to cover some follow up items not covered by the government – like phone contacts with the Dr or medical notes and such items.

If I lived in the United States I would probably be spending several thousands of dollars and I would probably be looking at tens of thousands of dollars of future cost to get the treatments I need.  These costs would mean that many people would simply not get care because they don’t have the money or insurance to pay for it.

There exists a very phony debate about comparing the health care systems in both countries which is a joke – there is no comparison.  The only reason there is a debate at all is because the corporations who own both the healthcare system and the media in the US provide an ongoing false debate to protect their profits.

These HMO’s and private corporations in the US make money by denying care – they are death mongers who are in the “business” to make money and their profits reflect the deaths of their “patients”

message of the day – quit smoking – at all costs do yourself a major favor – quit smoking

Dr Judy Wood, 9/11 and where did those damn towers go?


“Dr. Judy Wood earned a Ph.D. Degree from Virginia Tech and is a former professor of mechanical engineering. She has research expertise in experimental stress analysis, structural mechanics, deformation analysis, materials characterization and materials engineering science. Her research has involved testing materials, including complex-material systems, in the area of photomechanics, or the use of optical and image-analysis methods to determine physical properties of materials and measure how materials respond to forces placed on them. Her area of expertise involves interferometry in forensic science. She taught graduate and undergraduate engineering classes and has authored or co-authored over 60 peer-reviewed papers and journal publications in her areas of expertise.”

Dr. Wood received her

  • B.S. (Civil Engineering, 1981) (Structural Engineering),
  • M.S. (Engineering Mechanics (Applied Physics), 1983), and
  • Ph.D. (Materials Engineering Science, 1992) from the Department of Engineering Science and Mechanics at Virginia Polytechnic Institute and State University in Blacksburg, Virginia.

Her dissertation involved the development of an experimental method to measure thermal stresses in bimaterial joints. She has taught courses including

  • Experimental Stress Analysis,
  • Engineering Mechanics,
  • Mechanics of Materials (Strength of Materials)
  • Strength of Materials Testing
Jesus is reported to have said: “you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free” but perhaps he should have expanded that comment with a caveat that cautioned truth seekers with the warning that freedom of mind and spirit could well lead to some rather negative effects for the body
Truth, that ever elusive commodity in this modern age, has consequences as Jesus well knows
as Leonard Cohen wrote: “he sank beneath our wisdom like a stone”
I don’t want to take anyone’s time in trying to convince you of the truth of 9/11
Let us agree simply on two things
1. 9/11 occurred and
2. there have been subsequent repercussions of 9/11
Dr Judy Wood is the only person who has conducted a scientific study of the evidence of 9/11
Her book about her research is entitled Where Did The Towers Go?
If there is anything I would like to convince anyone to do if they want to understand 9/11 it is this: read the book
(full disclosure: Dr Wood is a hero of mine)